You can take me out the city but you can't take the city out me. A LA guurrllll for real. I'm back on my blog vibezzz. Getting personal here about my true feelings.

LIVING ON PURPOSE FOR A PURPOSE

 I thought I was good today but I did it. Lord, tell my mom I miss her deeply. The thoughts I had today was constantly playing in my head about how she was feeling all this time leading up to that day. Did she know and didn't want to worry me. 

Excuses. Excuses. We all have them, some more than others. So as you may or may not know, my BBF aka Queen Mother passed on 4/20/22. That's a significant date. I'll have to wait for another time to go into that with you.

 Anyway, I'd finally pulled my nerves together to present this BIGG event on 5/14/22 to expose myself as a new, watchout here I come production and entertainment  company ready to take on the world. But as you know, it didn't go down. I really wanted to crawl under a giant rock, cry myself to sleep every single day until I had no desire to live. I felt alone and abandoned. my biggest fan, my biggest supporter has gone from my reality of life and I didn't know what to do. I started contemplating on my life existence, on my vision, on my purpose and mostly on my business. 

Let me tell you something.....I literally decided that I was going to just give up, don't look back and forget every single bit of IT!  BUT GOD!!!!     

 To be cont....

V1P WOMEN TALENT SHOWCASE

VONE1 HAS JUST STARTED COUNT DOWN FOR THE CELEBRATION OF WOMENHOOD TALENT SHOWCASE FOR AUGUST 2024

INFO ABOUT HOW TO BE A PART OF THE TALENT SHOWCASE, CHECK THE LINK HERE @ LINKTR.EE/JAYYV1P

~Food for thought....IJS!

Whether you are currently on a sunny mountaintop or trudging through a harrowing valley, God is weaving your story into His greater plan. Through His word, we are pointed to women who provide us inspiration and encouragement for our own lives today. And anyone who thinks the women of either the Old or New Testament were simply side notes hasn't been paying attention. The woman described in Proverbs 31 is the perfect example. She brings honor to her home, makes business deals, works "vigorously," and looks out for everyone under her care. She speaks with wisdom and doesn't waste her time. With God's help and the examples planted throughout Scripture, we may live out these words:

SHE IS CLOTHED WITH STRENGTH AND DIGNITY; SHE CAN LAUGH AT THE DAYS TO COME. (Proverbs 31:25)

*The Women Of The Bible Speaks by Shannon Bream Pg. 221

WHERE DID YOU GO........

WHY CAN'T I HEAR YOU?

HAVE YOU EVER FELT LIKE GOD HAS LEFT YOU OR WENT MIA ?

SO LET ME BACK UP A FEW MONTHS. I WAS FEELING VERY EXCITED AND CONFIDENT ABOUT MY UPCOMING EVENT. I WASN'T FEELING TO SCARED OR HESITANT ABOUT IT LIKE I WAS IN THE BEGINING. I BUILT MY CONFIDENCE LEVEL UP TO ACTUALLY MOVE FORWARD IN THIS BUSINESS AND WASN'T GOING TO TURN BACK DUE TO MY DOUBT OR OTHERS DISBELIEF IN ME. I RECIEVED SOME INFORMATION AND THAT PUT ME BACK TO SQUARE ONE. WHEN I SAY BACK, I MEAN I STARTED HAVING NEGATIVE THOUGHTS ABOUT THIS WHOLE JOURNEY OF V1P. HOW COULD YOU GIVE ME SUCH BIG ASPIRATIONS, INSPIRE ME WITH VISIONS. I WENT ON AND ON WITH THESE EMOTIONAL UPS AND DOWNS FOR AWHILE. I DIDN'T FEEL THE NEED TO SHARE THIS WITH ANYONE SO I SHOWED UP WITH A SMILE AND LIVED AS IF EVERYTHING WAS GOOD. THIS INFO WAS A CURVE BALL THAT WAS SENT TO DISTRACT, DISCOURAGE ME AND HOPEFULLY GIVE IT ALL UP. EVERYTIME I TURNED AROUND IT WAS SOMETHING MORE TO DO. THIS BUSINESS WASN'T EASY TO GET INTO, AS IT SEEMED.    # B U T  G O D!!!

GOD KNEW MY STRUGGLE, MY FEELINGS OF EMPTYNESS AND MY DISBELIEF ALL TO WELL. A FEW WEEKS AGO, I HAD A DREAM THAT WOKE ME UP OUT OF MY SLEEP. IT WAS LIKE SO REAL. I KNEW IT WAS HIM SHOWING ME WHAT I'VE BEEN UNCONSCIOUSLY STRUGGLING WITH. >>>TRUSTING IN HIM TO DO WHAT HE SAID HE WILL DO. P E R I O D....PoinT BlanK! HEELLLLEERRRR SOMEBODY....( I'LL SHARE THE DREAM SOME OTHER TIME...) JUST KNOW THIS, "I'm BACK!!!!"

ONCE A PERSON IS FAMILIAR WITH THE PATH OR ASSIGNMENT THEIR ON, BELIEVE ME, YOU'LL KNOW THE STRUGGLES AREN'T WHAT THEY LOOK LIKE. I QUICKLY ADJUSTED MY CROWN, GOT BACK ON MY HORSE AND GOT BACK ON THE GRIND. I ALSO REALIZED THAT SPACE OPENED MY EYES TO GREAT IDEALS, A BETTER VISION FOR V1P AND A DEEPER UNDERSTANDING OF THE JOURNEY I'M TO TAKE. 

I was here all the time, you just wasn't listening my child..

- GOD

TO BE CONTINUED........ 

GIVING UP IS NEVER A OPTION

                                     

 IT HAS BEEN ON MY MIND FOR SOMETIME NOW BUT THIS ISN'T THE FIRST.......

LIFE IS HARD ENOUGH JUST BEING ALIVE AND LIVING. NEVER THE LESS, TRYING TO STAY IN THE SHADOWS, KEEPING A LOW PROFILE, JUST BEING A REGULAR HUMAN IS ALSO GREAT. HOWEVER, WHAT IS ONE SUPPOSE TO DO WHEN HE GIVES YOU AN ASSIGNMENT AND IT'S EXTRA BIGG? WHAT DO YOU DO WHEN YOU'RE CALLED TO DO GREAT THINGS OR ACCOMPLISH BIGG OR ATTENTIONAL GOALS IN LIFE THAT SET YOU APART FROM THE REST ? I'LL TELL YOU, FIRST OF ALL, IT WILL PUT YOU IN A STATE OF MIND THAT MAKES YOU SAY "WHY ME?".

 I LEARNED EARLY ON THAT I WAS DIFFERENT BUT NORMAL IN A SENSE OF DOING WHAT IS EXPECTED OF ME. YOU KNOW , GO TO SCHOOL, GRADUATE FROM COLLEGE ( didn't do that) GET MARRIED AND HAVE A FAMILY, ETC....(if you read my last blogs , you know how that went). 

GROWING UP IN A LARGE FAMILY WAS GREAT BUT IT TO HAD IT'S DOWN FALLS. BEING THE SECOND GRANDCHILD WAS PRESSURE ENOUGH BEING THAT ALL COUSIN COMING UP AFTER YOU LOOKS TO YOU AS THE GO TO FOR OR THE Q & A FOR ALMOST EVERYTHING FAMILY BUSINESS OR SETTING THE TONE FOR OUR FUTURE. WELL I THINK I DID THAT IN SOME WAYS BUT FOR THE MOST PART I DID TRY. 

MOVING FORWARD INTO MY ADULT LIFE WAS DIFFICULT BUT I DIDN'T TURN OUT TO BAD. TRYING TO FIND MY SPOT IN THIS CHAOTIC, PATRIOTIC, GROWING AND FAST PACE WORLD OF "YOU CAN BE ANYTHING YOU WANT" KINDA WORLD, HAD ME ALWAYS WONDERING, "WHAT AM I SUPPOSE TO BE DOING HERE?"  NOW THAT'S THE REAL Q & A.

I STARTED ASKING MYSELF THIS AND SEEKING ANSWERES FROM MY SPIRITUAL AWARENESS WITHIN. MY INFLUENCE OF MY PATH AND DESIRES OF MY HEART ALONG WITH MY EXPERIENCE THROUGH THIS JOURNEY OF LIFE TOOK ME IN AND OUT OF MY PASS EMOTIONS, MY PASSION FOR CREATING DANCE ROUTINES ACTING LIKE I WAS IN A MOTOWN GROUP WITH MY COUSINS, PUTTING THINGS TOGETHER (with the instructions of course) AND NOT GIVING UP UNTIL IT'S DONE. COMING FROM A WIDE DIVERSE FAMILY OF TALENTED PEOPLE OPENED THE DOOR OF INTEREST IN ENTERTAINMENT. 

MOVING ON, I REALIZED THAT I WOULD MAKE A LEAP OF FAITH INTO THE MUSIC INDUSTRY TAKING ON A BEHIND THE SCENES SORTA BUT BIG POSITION AS AN MANAGER TO RECORDING ARTIST. THIS WAS A GREAT PLAN AS I THOUGHT UNTIL EVERY SENSE OF WHAT I WAS DOING REQUIRED MAINLY ON KNOWING THE KEY PLAYERS, IN WHICH I DIDN'T KNOW TO MANY BUT ONLY A HANDFUL...OKAY 2 OR 3. LOL. THE FEMALE GROUP WAS YOUNG AND TO PREOCCUPIED WITH PERSONAL ISSUES THEN GETTING THEIR BUSINESS AS A GROUP MOVING IN THE DIRECTION WE'D ALL AGREED ON. MY PERSONAL LIFE WAS NOT MAKING MY DECISIONS ANY BETTER NEITHER. SO THAT CAME AND WENT. I DIPPED AND DABBLED A FEW TIMES WITH THE MANAGING BUT I ALSO HAD URGES, PASSIONS AND VISIONS OF DOING MUCH MORE THEN MANAGING ARTIST. I LIKE MOST OF US DIDN'T BELIEVE IN MYSELF TO TAKE ON WHAT I KNEW WAS PUT IN ME TO DO. IT WAS TO BIG TO ACCOMPLISH AND TO FAR FETCH TO IMAGINE. I MASTERED THE PROCRASTINATING SKILL ALL TO WELL. GOING THROUGH LIFE ROLLER COASTERS OF DOING EVERYTHING BUT MADE IT EASIER FOR ME TO IGNORE WHAT WAS BURNING UP IN MY SOUL. WHEN LIFE HIT YOU IN THE RIGHT SPACE AND TIME ZONE OF YOUR LIFE AND NOTHING ELSE MAKES YOU DRIVE THE PASSION TO DO YOU COMES TO AN BIG ASS PIMPLE THAT YOU WANT TO POP SO BAD TAKES OVER, ALL THE GIVING UP AND HOPING IT'LL GO AWAY JUST DOESN'T TAKE OVER YOU ANYMORE. 

SO THE BIGG Q & A IS NOT DO I GIVE UP BUT RATHER WHY GIVE UP? 

TO BE CONTINUED....XOXO

TRUST THE PROCESS

Psalm 25:4-5 (KJV)

Shew me thy ways, O Lord; teach me thy paths. Lead me in thy truth, and teach me: for thou art the God of my salvation; on thee do I wait all the day.

Life won't always be easy, but the Lord can always be trusted. We should always rely on Him for wisdom and direction in our lives...

The Process of TRUST is always followed by the word DOUBT in comparison to ones experience in life. We're not born with doubt but it is a form of disbelief in a situation or people. How does one develop trust in anything? Well, I could tell you how I decided to trust and put all my faith in one individual who has made a way out of no way. He's proved himself time and time again in my life and I can't say not one thing otherwise. I took a stand for my life one day to take a big leap of faith and I told God, if he's who is says he is then he would have to show me.(sometimes you have to test him but not always recommended, you might not like the out come, but yes, I tried him). I was tired of being sick and tired and decided to face my fear of doing this life thing on my own. My entire adult life up to this point was very much so depending on someone else moves and decisions because I was young and thought this was how it was suppose to be when you have children, a baby daddy/husband. I knew I wasn't doing what I really wanted but I people pleased which is never the best choice. So I eventually divorced (don't judge me),I decided to face my fears head on to encounter the journey of the unknown. I wasn't totally screwed because I had my parents to fall back on but never did I stay to long, just enough time to get it together. My fears was best described as not being able to provide a life style of comfort and ease without being attached to a man or should I say a PROVIDER. I married for the wrong reasons. I was in love but love only get you so far when you think of love in a immature way as I did (Yes young and still wet behind the ears as they say). My FEARS and FAITH was challenged and it was hard but babyyy, I got through it and it only made me stronger and definitely more confident with who my God is. I got to know him in a very personal way that made my TRUST develop intensely deeper then I've ever known. He never will forsake you or disappoint you in anything that he PROMISE. Learn to "TRUST THE PROCESS"  and enjoy the JOURNEY!

                                                                        TO BE CONTINUED......